Boredom :/

Even though I am definitely not a trained professional or in any other position to tell you about this with any authority, and ‘this’ is just my experience, I’m going to talk about it anyway. Just because.

If you’re anything like me, you get bored very very easily. Seriously, if I’m not being challenged ALL the time, or if I’m working on one thing for too long, I get bored and I stop caring. This is varying degrees of bad. If it’s on like a school project, I stop caring about it and end up inevitably getting a pretty average grade in comparison to what I could have gotten had I cared enough.

(This is particularly bad when I get bored in general. I will just pick up and disappear without any warning. I used to just change schools like twice a year just because I got that bored (there were other reasons as well but let’s not go into that)).

The thing is, I’m perfectly capable of succeeding. When I want to be, I’m a good student. If I care enough, I get really good grades. But only when I want to. For me to successfully do anything at all, I have to want it. If somebody else is telling me to do something I don’t care about, I’ll either just not do it at all, or do it but do it really badly and not up to the standard that I could have. It’s not that I don’t care about anything, or my grades etc. But if I have to work on the same thing for six weeks, it gets pretty boring and I just want to get it over and done with so I can move on to 583936 other more exciting things. Highly unproductive.

As far as I know, there is no way I can change this about myself. It’s also why I can’t picture myself in most jobs. Worked in retail once. The monotonous routine was soul sucking. But hey, that’s a problem for very-near-future me.

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