Boredom :/

Even though I am definitely not a trained professional or in any other position to tell you about this with any authority, and ‘this’ is just my experience, I’m going to talk about it anyway. Just because.

If you’re anything like me, you get bored very very easily. Seriously, if I’m not being challenged ALL the time, or if I’m working on one thing for too long, I get bored and I stop caring. This is varying degrees of bad. If it’s on like a school project, I stop caring about it and end up inevitably getting a pretty average grade in comparison to what I could have gotten had I cared enough. Continue reading

Patchwork People

Does it ever seem like parts of your personality don’t match up to your life and/or experiences? Like the random splash of colour on a monochromatic scheme (didn’t mean for that to be so dark) or kind of like you’re made up of patchwork traits that come from your alternate selves.

I think of these traits as snippets from my ‘parallel existences’ if you will. The five other lives that I feel I should have had, as they’d make more sense and match up better with my personality. Continue reading

Writers Block????

I haven’t been able to write (and finish) anything creative in so so long. Not only is it frustrating, it’s also really upsetting. I’ve always been first and foremost a writer, it’s like one of my defining personality traits. But the metaphorical well of ideas has dried up.

Nothing quite like being a writer without anything to write about huh? Like trying to climb a flight of stairs when the first ten steps are missing. Continue reading

To My 10 Year Old Self

It is your eighteenth birthday in half an hour, that milestone you’ve been waiting your whole life for just because you were told that you should. In a few months, little me, your life is going to get very difficult. I won’t lie to you. It’ll get seemingly impossible for a long time. But as all of those things have already happened to me, I have to reassure you that you are much much stronger than you believe, even if nobody else ever tells you that. Your Continue reading

On Anxiety

 

I have had severe anxiety since I was 11. It wasn’t diagnosed officially until I was sixteen, and got given medication for it just after my seventeenth birthday. The only reason I was approved for medication was because my anxiety was affecting my concentration in school; not because it was cripplingly debilitating and limited my ability to function as a human being.

“According to the DSM 5, a panic attack is characterized by four or more of the following symptoms: Continue reading

Short story #2- Amelia

 

 

Amelia

Something has occurred to me, as I sit in my room on my ward in this hospital. I know nothing sensible could possibly occur to me but I need to get this off my chest. You see Amelia, I don’t actually know if I’m seeing things or not. I hear things, and I feel things, whispers and ghostly touches skimming across the back of my neck, like spiders. I think I see things. They tell me I don’t, but then who was moving things in the attic?

You understand Amelia. I’m not crazy. I swear it. I would Continue reading

Victim Blaming

Victim Blaming: when somebody blames abuse/sexual assault etc on the person that suffered the abuse.

Victim blaming most commonly occurs surrounding rape cases. Usually three key sentences come into play

  1. “She was asking for it”
  2. “Well what was she wearing?”
  3. “She’s probably lying, she’s such a slut anyway right?”

and so on. (Please note this post is only in regards to female rape victims, on male rape victims would be a whole different post)

Why are people so desperate to hold the victim responsible for what happened to them? Continue reading